I lived in San Francisco my whole life, after graduating from SFSU with my BFA, I couldn’t find work to cover my rent and became homeless, after a year of couch surfing and looking for work, I was convinced to move in with some people I will not be naming.I was convinced through a series of lies…
My name is Shannon I am an SFSU graduate with a BFA in film production as well as an AA in Journalism also with a focus in production.
I was born in San Francisco Ca in 1983 and lived there until 2013, when in 2012 do to the gentrification of my neighborhood as well as being able to find high enough paying work to cover my rent, my friend and I lost out apartment.
I spent a year couch surfing and looking for work to get my life back on track. With the current state of the job market it was almost impossible. The part time job I had wasn’t making ends meet in anyway that provided a decent standard of living. At this point I got an ear infection, and it damn near cleared my savings.
I was at a very low point, and through a series of lies I was convinced to move in with some people who I wont be naming . It was a big move for me, all the way to Las Vegas, I was hesitant to say the least. But they where very convincing, they were also people I thought I could trust. They where my parents.
I was told I would have a bedroom, a bed and a dress and a place to put my things, as well as 25 dollars a week and a bus pass while I looked for work, or focused on the internship I landed.
This was all a lie, I sleep on a broken futon in the hallway and was told they never said I would have a room or even a curtain in front of my bed, I was told they never said i would have a dresser, I was also told I wasn’t to unpack.
I have been wearing the same few outfits I had in my duffle bag for since october. Recently my mother told me I had to throw out my belongs because they were taking up too much room in the garage. I only have about 9 boxes of belongings.
They leave me passive aggressive notes which say the two other people who live here with them don’t have to do anything that it’s my job to clean up after them.
When I am out of sight I hear them making fun of me, of my vision problems, my weight and my mental health issues. They tell me I am crazy and have no reason to be depressed.
They say things and do things, then say they never said them. I recently got accused of having hidden money when a friend sent me a care package with some fun little things in it. Also when another friend helped me replace my laptop, I got in trouble.
They intentionally push the buttons I have that lead to panic attacks, and self injury then make fun of my problem with self injury and tell me I’m embarrassing them.
Then they turn around and say they never said those things, and that they are worried about and love me very much.
My internship with a popular musical is supposed to end on May 3rd.
I would like to be able to move by mid Mid may but I need the funds to do so, I have been offered a room with a trusted friend on the east coast, where I will be more likely to find work in my fields of education.
But I need money to ship my belongs, I can’t drive because I am legally blind, this created another problem out here as the public transit is seriously lacking. I don’t have the money to leave the house, and thus have become completely isolated from all the things I love, and my nearest non net friends are 1000 miles away. Anything I leave behind will be thrown away, because my mother has already threatened to do this while I am still living here.
Also I need funds for a Plane or Train Ticket to my new home, and the funds to do this without having to tell the people I am living with until the last minute.
Other things I will need:
- Bus pass while I look for work
- Money to live on, IE : Hygiene items, food ect
- A cushion until I find a job out there
I have already been applying for jobs in my friends area, and just outside her area, but since october I have had three suicide attempts, I can’t keep going like this, if I stay here it will kill me, it just a matter of time.
if you like to donate, there is the link to my go fund me, or you can donate to my paypal which is Punknewsie@gmail.com.
I am terrified to move, because of what’s happened this last time, I am terrified that things wont get better no matter how hard I try. But I know I like being alive, and if I stay here I wont even have that.
I want to thank those who have already donated, and thank my fandom family for being there for me during this time.